~ Suddenly It's Forever ~

I have often turned and looked at myself through a store window. And every once in a while I am shocked to see a woman looking back that reminds me of my mother.

Strange thing... I'm now old enough to be my mother's mother and it makes me feel so sad. Because now, I fully realize how young she was when she died!




~GRIEF~

Grief
so
deep,
that it makes this tight hurting in my chest,
I feel alone with it...
Grief
so
deep,
that my subconscious is immersed in tears,
I feel alone with it...
Grief
so
deep,
that it makes me feel a hundred years old,
I feel alone with it...
Grief
so
deep,
that only I can know it so intimately,
I feel alone with it...
Grief
so
deep,
that I believe will always be there,
so alone with me...
Grief
so
deep,
that I know I can not handle it,
without You, God...

© 1974 by Dorothy Caywood/McEntire

 

This is a story about my mother.
She was five years old when she witnessed her father shot to death.  She was killed by my father when she was only 48 years old.

This is a photo of my mother and grandmother. It was taken one month before my grandmother died.

- SUDDENLY  INDEX -

Below are the pages for reading my book online.


[ Introduction ] [ Chapter One ]


[ Chapter Two ] [ Chapter Three ]


[ Chapter Four ] [ Chapter Five ]


[ Chapter Six ] [ Chapter Seven ]


[ Chapter Eight ] [ Chapter Nine ]


[ Chapter Ten ] [ Chapter Eleven ]


[ Chapter Twelve ] [ Chapter Thirteen ]


[ Chapter Fourteen ] [ Chapter Fifteen ]


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